I was running through my house earlier today grabbing things to run out the door to meet with a sweet friend from church. I was nervous about meeting with her because it was the next step I needed to take into what I’ve felt led to do a long time. Have you ever felt called to do something that terrified you? You knew the Lord was leading you but the fear of it still was there. You knew you needed to trust God with the step he had been leading you to take. So, you pray as you head to meet up with the sweet friend you are going to co-lead a small group with. There it is, I actually put it out there. I’m typing and still asking myself, ”I’m I really going to do this”? Did I really just say, yes to co-leading a small group of women? Did I think this through? Did I really hear God? Is that the Holy Spirit gently nudging me into what God has ordained in this season for me? All the questions running around in this mind of mine, yet I keep taking the step.

The narrative that has been running inside my head was, ”Do I have the mental capacity to lead a group of women”? In all honesty probably not within myself, but with Jesus yes I do. I know that when he calls you to something, he also provides you with everything you need to do it. I am 100% sure that God never leads you to a place and leave you there. I also know that God can see us doing way more than we believe that we can do. I think the reasoning for that is he sees us doing it through himself and we see ourselves doing it within ourselves. I hope you see the difference there. It is only through him that all things are made possible. All of my fears of leading are being lifted to Jesus every time I take the step.

Let’s go a little deeper with this. It was not just the fear of leading but, it was the fear of leading ladies. Let’s be honest, we can sometimes be a bit messy. I look at myself and I can be messy my own self (yes, I take ownership of it) so imagine a few us of getting together, it might get a little messy but Jesus loves to take our messiness and create something beautiful. So for me to take this step I would probably need to be in a place that I was willing to open myself up again to all the things that come with leading in any capacity. I think as a leader that I wanted to be one that leads from a place of compassion, empathy, integrity and love. I want to lead and not be afraid to be vulnerable or to share my story. I also was struggling with this idea that leading meant that I had to have all of my stuff together. I am writing this blog and processing the statement I just wrote lol. If that statement is true basically I would have to perfect everything in me to lead. I truly believe to not struggle with something meant that I was somehow perfect. I think as humans in general we all have something that we struggle with from time to time. I definitely do not have it all together, sometimes I don’t think I have any of it together but praise God he knows that but yet he calls me worthy.

In saying all of the above words, I want to leave you with a few things to ponder. God will call us into places that are unknown to us but fully known to him. I believe that God is not calling me nor you to step into perfection but I completely believe that he calls us to be intentional with our gifts. Our worth is never in what we do but it is definitely in Jesus who calls us to do it. So maybe there is a step that you need to take or that you feel the Lord leading you to take; I want to encourage you to take the step. It might make you feel uncomfortable and that is okay. Do not let yourself be discouraged my your own thinking but let the light of God’s truth fill your mind even now . So many times I have single handily discouraged myself from doing things that I knew God was leading me to do. I have talked myself out of doing it by thinking about all that I felt I didn’t have rather than thinking of all that Jesus is. All that both of us need is rooted in Jesus and if he is within us, we will not fail being obedient to his leading.

In closing let me say a prayer over us. Lord Jesus I am so grateful for all that you are in our lives. I thank you that you know each of us more intimately than we even know ourselves. God give us courage to hear your voice and to take the step that you are leading us to take. Father let your voice be louder than the voice of the enemy trying to speak doubt into our hearts. It is in you that we have all that we need to do the things that you have assigned us to do. Be with us Jesus, we surrender all that we are to you. Thank you for being our loving father. It is in your name that we pray. Amen

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