So, I have a few special guest bloggers for this month. First up is my beautiful daughter Jada. Enjoy this post she wrote entitled,”What Do You Want For Christmas?”.
Around this season of Holidays, I often get much anxiety surrounding a particular question, “what doyou want for christmas?”. I can feel the anxiety well up in my chest the moment the question is asked. Though I love gift giving and doing for others when my finances allow, I have always struggled with asking for what I want. I often find myself responding with something I least desire compared to what I desire most. I know that I developed this habit as a child. I didn’t grow up poor but I knew we struggled with money. I know in some ways that has bled into my relationship with God. I have no issue with asking God for the small desires of my heart but those big desires…. asking Him for those creates such anxiety in my chest that doubt floods the ocean of my faith. Then I begin to feel like Peter drowning on the water I once walked on. While the voice of Jesus calls “O ye of little faith.” However, this year when the question is posed to me, I hear the Holy Spirit whispering to me “you have not because you ask not, ask for what you want.”See, this season my faith in my desires being fulfilled is not dependent on the limited capacity of man. We as mankind are limited by many things such as finances, ability, time, and the list goes on. However, God is not limited by those same constructs for his capabilities knows no bounds. When I answer the question about what I want for Christmas this year, it’s not about the gifts. It doesn’t even matter if I receive anything I ask for this year. In this season of my life, God is renewing my mind, teaching me to walk on water with the little faith I have. Teaching me to ask not just for the small desires but the large ones too. The ones that go beyond man’s or my capacity to fulfill. God would not have laid those desires on my heart if it was not His desire to fulfill them. So I encourage you this season to ask God for the desires of yourheart both big and small. In closing, I pose this question to you….what do you want for Christmas?
Thank you for being a part of my blog community. I’m truly honored you are here. I’m truly excited about every blog this month. I have two more to share this month to end this year with. The last one is very special and I know your going to enjoy. Remember to allow yourself to ask for what you truly want for Christmas when people ask. I encourage you to ask Jesus for those things you desire and need. In his word he said he would give you the desires of your heart and meet your needs according to his riches in glory. Rest in that truth this Holiday Season.
I am a wife, a mother a believer in Jesus Christ and a person who has lived with a mental health condition. My desire is to come alongside of those like me who need support. I will write my real, raw, honest journey through this in hopes that you and I can find strength through it together. Your comments are welcomed and honored here. All I ask is that you be respectful with your words because my journey might not look like yours but it is mine. Looking forward to walking alongside you here in this safe space.
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If your looking for perfect grammar and words placed perfect….you won’t find that here. You will find words that come from my heart and the heart of Jesus, hopefully in that you will find hope. I believe with hope comes the courage to step into the safety of the light.
“Oh ye of little faith”. Whoa! This spoke to me in more ways than I can express, but I’ll try one. I truly felt the anxiety in asking for the big things and without hesitation requesting the mall desires if my heart. This holiday season I’ll be more intentional about not only asking, but remembering the things He’s laid in my heart that He is surely able to do!
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